The Mask of Joy

   My name is Jocelyn

but that is nothing but a name.

Its meaning is joyful

When I am full of nothing but pain.

I have had my dreams stolen,

been put to the test.

I have seen the best parts of life,

 been through the worst of it.

Even if I am supposed to be joy Its self.

I have always tried to stay strong ,

looked happy and joyful,

but on the inside I am breaking 

and my mask is cracking from the pain.

I  will try remain Jocelyn,

the girl with a mask of smiles.

but my smile is fading.

My face has become blank.

I have lost the reason to show a stranger a smile.

I would rather not let them see who I am.

Some days I fear that girl in the mirror will disappear, 

that no one will be there to help me rescue her.

But  I know I have a family,

people how love me. 

So that as my mask begins to shatter

and my  joy fades away.

That my family will be by my side

waiting to catch my mask,  

and remind me that I am Jocelyn, 

the joy of their life.